I’m an ENFP – What Are You?

Have you ever been curious about the general personality type of someone you just met? Do you sometimes sit and ponder the personality of friends, relatives and coworkers? Do you enjoy analyzing generalizations of your personality type just to pick out the inaccuracies? Maybe I’m just strange, but I do enjoy these little mental excursions.

My Personality Type: ENFP

ENFPs are introspective, values-oriented, inspiring, social and extremely expressive. They actively send their thoughts and ideas out into the world as a way to bring attention to what they feel to be important, which often has to do with ethics and current events. ENFPs are natural advocates, attracting people to themselves and their cause with excellent people skills, warmth, energy and positivity. ENFPs are described as creative, resourceful, assertive, spontaneous, life-loving, charismatic, passionate and experimental.

Source: MyPersonality.info

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Well, that’s a pretty good picture painted there, but I have to admit that it’s not entirely accurate. Still, it is pretty close to the reflection I see in the mirror, as it were. I do tend to be very outgoing, energetic and friendly. I have very strong convictions and I am not willing to sacrifice those convictions. I’m a “hand-talker” and I often express myself through music and this blog, so extremely expressive would be accurate. I wouldn’t say my people skills are excellent, but I do tend to get a positive response from people. The more I think about it, yeah, that summary would be pretty accurate.

I thoroughly enjoy getting to know people better. Sometimes, that involves analyzing their personality. Some might call this mental masturbation. Personally, I consider it inquisitiveness. I’ve always been fascinated by sociology and psychology. I enjoy learning about how people think, the motivations that guide them and how they interact with others.

I’d like to take this opportunity to really get to know my visitors better. Why? Well, because I’m curious about who visits this site, why they visit, what attracts them here, what they like and don’t like, what we share in common, what makes us different, how I can better cater this site to those who visit and a whole host of other reasons. If for no other reason, it’s just simply a good time getting to know people.

You have read my two cents. Now have your say!
If you also enjoy learning more about those you interact with, why don’t you join me in the discovery. What is your personality type?
Is your personality truly reflective of how you see your personality?
Have something else on your mind? Don’t be shy. Speak Up! 🙂

Silent Suffering

For the record… I write some pretty strange stuff. Some of it is based on reality, much of it is not. Some things are pretty touching and benign. Some things are pretty damn dark. The assumption I take in all my writings is that you, as the reader, understand that they are just a form of art. Sometimes this art can be beautiful, sometimes it can be down right scary. Nevertheless, art it is and should be taken as such.

With that being said, I was listening to KoRn earlier (hell of a way to start a blog post 😀 ) and a couple lines of one of their darker songs (um, they have not dark songs?) got stuck in my head. From there, creative juices started flowing and the following came out. I’m going to be honest, I thought twice about posting this. This poem is some pretty dark stuff! Still, it’s art and sometimes the best thing an artist can do is just put their work out there and let it touch who it will. It’s with that, I let you continue onto the poem…

Silent Suffering

Am I immortal, peel the flesh let’s look and see
What lies beneath that makes me me

Is the anguish intelligent design
Am I randomness running blind

You sit there so righteous looking at me
Dare you not open your eyes and see what I see

I live in pain I cannot express
Torture I take until my last breath

You know me not well, no not well at all
You see not on my stomach I squirm and I crawl

The man in the mirror, is that man me
He is not who I feel like, nor what I can see

Tormented I walk along this dark lonely path
A danger to the present, a victim to the past

I cry out for forgiveness, to have my sin washed away
I live in duality, it is with my sanity I shall pay

You try to comfort and say this too shall pass
I just want to hurt you and knock you on your ass

This rage inside is so strong and so raw
Even my own skin I bite and I claw

My bloody face does not tell the whole tail
I must gain control, one of us must fail

The ultimate sacrifice is one release, one way out
But that leaves eternity cast in a shadow of doubt

Yet I cannot continue living in this torment, this insanity
So I sit here and silently cry as my skin slowly bleeds

[SOLVED] Windows 7 Update Freezes

By now, most people who are using Microsoft Windows are either running Windows 8 or have taken the risk of updating to Windows 10. However, some of us have either chosen to hold off for the time being or have older computers that are not compatible with Microsoft’s latest offerings.

Recently I had to reinstall Windows 7 on a system. Since the installation media is a few years old, it didn’t have the benefit of having recent service packs and updates installed. On older versions of Windows, this wasn’t as much of a problem. You simply ran Windows Update and clicked Install Updates. Come back in a couple hours and everything was done. Well, for whatever reason, Windows 7 doesn’t play nice like this.

When I was an IT Technician at WVU-P, we would always setup a sandbox system where we would test all updates before rolling them out to the network through RIS. The main reason is some Microsoft updates simply don’t play well with all systems. That seems to be the case with many people’s computers and Windows 7.

The following outlines the steps I took to get Windows 7 to complete Windows Update without completely locking up on me.

Step 1: Backup your computer! Before you make any major changes to your computer, you should always make a backup. There are many free backup tools out there that are far superior to the native Microsoft backup utilities. As to which is best, I cannot say as I’ve used Acronis (not free) for a number of years.

Step 2: Next, you need to make sure your system is clean of any and all malicious software. Malware can prevent you from installing Windows Update! You can use free tools like this antivirus software and malware protection suite. Install these, run them, and make sure you get rid of any little nasties hiding on your system.

Step 3: Get rid of any junk software and files on your computer. The easiest way to accomplish this is with CCleaner. Inside CCleaner, you can uninstall unneeded software and perform a cleanup of your junk files. It’s super easy to use and free.

Step 4: Once you’ve done the above steps and determined that your computer is working fine, perform another backup. This will give you a known good state to return to if things go wrong in the update process.

Step 5: Start Windows Update from the Control Panel and go to the xxx important updates are available section. In there, you will likely see the following screen.

Tons of Windows Updates Screen Capture

As you can see, Microsoft selects all updates (or nearly all) to be installed. What you want to do is deselect all and only attempt to install the first few updates one-at-a-time. Reason is, these first few updates tend to be the ones that like to freeze.

Windows Update One-At-A-Time Screenshot

If the update freezes and will not install, make a note of which update it was and reboot your system. Then, go back into Windows update and try a different update package to install. Once you get an update package to install, you need to reboot, even if Windows Update does not prompt you to do so.

Windows Update Reboot Your System Screenshot

Step 6: Once you reboot, go back into Windows Update and repeat these steps until you get to a point where you are presented with groups of updates that all look kinda the same. the main difference will be the Microsoft Knowledge Base article number at the end of the update title. Usually, this will be in the form of (KBxxxxxxx).

Windows Update by Update Type Screenshot

As seen above, select the above updates by update type and install. Then, once they install, reboot your system, whether you’re prompted or not. You will need to repeat this process until you’ve gone through all important updates. If you plan to install any optional updates, I strongly recommend you repeat this process.

Step 7: Once all Windows Updates are installed and you’ve verified that your computer is functioning properly, do one more full backup of your system so you have a fail-safe/fall-back in case anything happens again in the future.

This process took a few hours to complete on my old Dell Vostro 1520, but it’s not an overly complex task. It just takes a little time and patience and all will be working again as it should.

I hope this helps anyone who has had problems with Windows 7 locking up on Windows Update.

Now I Know

Now I know why you had to come before me
Now I know why you made the blind man see

Now I know why your lessons are known by the few
Now I know why many doubters say it is not true

Now I know why you endured so much pain
Now I know why I am the one who is to gain

Now I know why you show love when you heal
Now I know why when I look at my life, I reel

Now I know why you never turned your back
Now I know why there is nothing that you lack

Now I know why I feel the way I do inside
Now I know why because in my heart you do abide

That the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give unto you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of him.

–Ephesians 1:17, KJV

A head full of the world and a heart full of the Lord never mixes. The war within never ceases…

An Autumn Day

I originally posted this many years ago. However, this was lost in time when I took this site down for five years. I’m republishing it now as example of my short fiction work. I hope you enjoy!

It has been a very long time since I sat down and tried to write much in the way of fiction, other than the occasional poem. Today, the mood struck me to give a shot at it. So, without further adieu, I give you An Autumn Day.

An Autumn Day Picture

There is a hint of decomposing leaves and burning oak in the air. There are very few birds singing their song now. Most have taken flight for a warmer climate. The crisp sound of leaves and twigs cracking and breaking resonates around us as our eight legs make contact with the ground. We are surrounded with a beautiful tapestry of color. Vibrant reds, warm yellows, and faded browns fill every nook and cranny of the ground. Hardly a bare spot exists.

Just as I pause for a respite and to take in the beauty of my surroundings, Jarvis whispers quietly, “Uncle James, look over there.” There on the horizon stands a four point buck. He is noticeably nervous as it is now deer season and his only refuge is this small nature park just outside town. With ribs pressing through his coat and breathing heavily, I suspect he has been on the run for some time and is not a part of a larger group.

Knowing just enough about animals to understand that you do not approach them when they are frightened, I advise Jarvis to stand still and watch from a safe distance. Jarvis complies, but Lucy starts to growl and lunge violently. In an instant, the deer snorts and darts over the hillside. Well, at least we had a moment to admire him, I said as we resumed our walk. Jarvis just quietly said, “Yeah. I wish we wouldn’t have brought her.”

Lucy, still keeping the leash taught, has not given up her quarry and persists in trying to break free to give chase. Fortunately, she is still young and is unable to break free of the tightly woven nylon leash. Eventually she succumbs to my urgings to move forward and once again, returns to trotting between me and Jarvis.

As we wonder through the woods, my mind drifts off recalling the events of the past year. I ponder those months of being lost in my own wilderness. How the rays of light shinning through the trees in the wood we are now walking are rather symbolic of the light that God shined on my journey. Still feeling the twinge of pain in my heart for the pain I caused my family, I gently reach out and caress Jarvis’s head and tell him I love him. He reciprocates the sentiment without breaking stride or even so much as looking back. Still, I know he loves me, that is just his way.

The next twenty minutes or are quiet with the exception of the sounds of nature, our breaths and Lucy occasionally warning whatever animal she sees in the distance with a growl or bark. As we walk, I wonder what is going on in his head. Normally he is quite chatty, even during our nature walks together. Finally, I give in to my curiosity and ask what is bothering him. He replies in a subdued voice, “nothing.” I pressed the issue no more.

We reached the car right as the sun fell below the tree line. The air is getting bitter now and the wind has picked up. This is a perfect day for some hot cocoa, I said to Jarvis as we buckled our seat-belts. He replied with enthusiasm, “Yay, hot chocolate!” Hot chocolate it is then, I replied with a smile.

As we pulled out of the nature park, I asked the boy if he would like some music on the way home. He replied no, which is for the best as Lucy is normally quite nervous on car rides. This is unusual for any dog I’ve ever seen, but nervous she is, so I drive slowly towards home.

The silence continued throughout the car ride home, which was no surprise. I could tell he was preoccupied by something, but I wasn’t sure what. Occasionally, I glanced back in the rear view mirror to see if he was awake. He was and he looked sad. It was then I realized what his “nothing” meant. He was thinking of her again and how she abandoned him. This sent a shot of pain through my heart. How could my sister, or any woman for that matter, turn her back on such a beautiful child? This is something I’ll never understand. However, I do understand his pain and I know him well enough to let him be when he does not wish to talk. I simply said, I love you Bubby, and let it go at that.

Upon arriving home, we were greeted with the wonderful scent of potato soup and homemade crusty bread. Mmmmmm… I said to Jarvis as we approached the door. Smells like Amy has cooked us up some good stuff. He replied, “Yummie!” while clapping his hands and jumping with excitement. We then make our entrance into our warm, cozy apartment where Amy greets us with a “Hello!”

She is standing their in her usual school teacher attire with my old green Ponderosa apron on to protect her clothes. Warmth fills my heart as I think of how much I love her. For the next few minutes, we engage in exchanging the usual pleasantries’ and inquiring about each other’s day. There is nothing particularly exciting about the conversation to an outside observer, but it is close to heaven on earth for this man who once was homeless and destitute. I just thought to myself, I’m a lucky man!

Dinner time arrives and we gather at our small, oval kitchen table. The dog takes her usual place on the floor, at my right side, ready to beg for any morsel she can. Never mind that her food dish is full! We all join hands as Jarvis leads us in grace, as he usually does. The steam from the potato soup has a hint of pepper and the crusty bread is warm and thickly sliced, just like I like it.

The remainder of the evening follows the status quo. Jarvis gets his bath after some play time. Amy reads Jarvis a book or two to help settle him down. I sit and go through the evening email and comment queue. After all the usual routines are completed, we join together in Jarvis’s room and kneel together in prayer. Once the boy is comfortably tucked in and Amy is singing him his song for the night, I gather the dog and take her out for her final walk of the day.

I walk out into the front yard and connect Lucy to the leash that is tied to the tree. As she takes care of nature, I light up a cigarette and gaze into the stars. Still feeling a bit depressed from everything that has happened in the last year, I turn to the only power I know that can help. With a smoke filled exhale, I simply utter, God help me.