Fading to Grey

Of all my passions, of all the things I have spent the most time doing, of all the things I cannot live without, music is very high on the list. While I’m no music expert, I am an audiophile and I simply cannot live without my music.

The last couple days, I’ve been really digging a good mix from one of my favorite bands, Jars of Clay. They are a very talented group with a sound that ranges from mellow and introspective, to up-beat and toe-tapping. While listening to this mix, the thought passed that, if I had one choice of a song to be stuck in my head forever, I would want Fade to Grey from their Much Afraid (1997) album to be it.

I express myself through the music I’m listening to and Fade to Grey is one of those songs that, when I need it the most, lifts me up and puts my feet back on the right path. It is a very emotional song for me as it speaks to my past and present. I won’t go into sappy emotionalism or into an autobiography here. Suffice it to say the lyrics of the song have very deep meaning for me. See lyrics below video.

Fade To Grey

It’s not hard to know what you’re thinking
When you look down on me now
Your trance of love is seeking
To turn this world around
But in my state of blind confusion
No God can pull me out
I see your love is willing
To turn me inside out

And then I see you there
The lonely tears I cry
I wish they’d release me

It’s in despair that I find faith
Summon the night to bow down to day
When ignorance is bliss
Save me from myself


And then I see You there
With Your arms open wide and You try to embrace me
These lonely tears I cry
They keep me in chains and I wish they’d release me
Cold is the night but
Colder still is the heart made of stone, turned from clay
And if you follow me
You’ll see all the black, all the white fade to grey

Fade to grey
Fade to grey

[Chorus x 2]

Putting aside the lyrical significance of this song, Fade to Grey is just an all around wonderful song to listen to if you can appreciate music for music’s sake. From the very first note, to the climax, through the chorus and all the way to the end, you feel the passion of this track. This song has such a well written and produced build up that, at its climax, I found tingles running down my spine and I simply could not resist the urge to tap my feet and drum my hands on my knees. Yeah, it’s that good!

In the last few years, I’ve probably heard this song a few hundred times and I’m not kidding when I say I could put it on repeat and play it all day long. Now, from some people, that would be no big surprise, but from me, that’s saying a lot! I rarely like to listen to the same song twice in a day. Often times I won’t play the same song twice in a week. I have a large music collection and I love diversity in music. But this song, of all the songs in my collection, is the one song I would want stuck in my head for eternity, if I could only choose one.

If you are a music lover, you owe it to yourself to check out this album. Even at 18 years old, this album simply rocks!

You’ve read my 20 cents, now it’s your turn!
If you could only pick one song to be stuck in your head for eternity, what song would it be?

7 Bassists That Simply KICK ASS!

It’s no surprise to anyone who knows me, but I’m a serious music fan. There’s very few things I love more than a driving beat and some wicked bass work. Here’s a list of some of my favorite bassists of all time strutting their stuff.


God Answers Our Prayers

I asked for strength and God gave me difficulties to make me strong.
I asked for wisdom and God gave me problems to solve.
I asked for prosperity and God gave me a brain and willingness to work hard.
I asked for courage and God gave me dangers to overcome.
I asked for love and God gave me troubled people to help.
I asked for favors and God gave me opportunities.
I received nothing I wanted.
I received everything I needed.
My prayer has been answered.


God hears us, and He answers our prayers.

Now That You’ve Gone Away

Take a drink to kill the pain
Don’t know when I’ll be back again

Behind cold bars, I feel the scars
Threw away what was once ours

Too late now, your silence kills
Numbing the pain with more pills

I’m sorry is just empty words
I killed your love with booze and girls

You held on tight, I ran away
I didn’t think you would slip away

I woke up late to find you gone
Now I sit in jail all alone

Hindsight’s clear, so they say
Empty now that you’ve gone away

Stare at the blocks, remember the time
We were in love, you were mine

We had it all, remember the fall?
Why wont you take my fucking call?

I swear I’ve changed, I’ll shoulder the blame
No more running around and childish games

Unconditional Love

True, unconditional love is not a feeling as in it can be changed on a whim whenever it’s target is deemed unworthy for whatever reason. No, true, unconditional love is a decision. It is a choice one makes to sacrifice a part of themselves – a part of their soul – to another being, regardless of that being’s worthiness or behavior.

When I say, “I love you” I mean I love you unconditionally. And no matter what, you cannot change the fact that I love you. We may make mistakes; we may hurt each other; we may betray each other’s trust; and we may grow to dislike each other. But, I will always love you because I made a conscious choice to give you a part of my soul and love you unconditionally.

True love is unconditional. True love is forever.